Last
Saturday, I was driving in Spokane on North Division and was involved in a
fender bender. I bumped the car in front
of me. No one was injured and there was
little or no property damage. No air
bags went off and Law Enforcement was not called. We exchanged information and
went about our lives.
I
reported this to my insurance carrier just like I explained it here. No excuses, it just happened. I suspect that is why they call it an “accident”.
Today
I was notified by my insurance carrier that the female driver of the car I
bumped, decided she sustained injuries and is going to her doctor.
At
the scene, she and I talked quite a while and we were both “uninjured”. Now a few days later, she decided to change
her status to “injured”.
Yes,
the good Lord is whacking me in the back of the head, trying to get me to be
humble and trusting. The problem is, I
don’t want to ~ so there is a battle of “the wills” going on. My will or God’s will. That sounded stupid when I thought it and
looks even stupider on paper.
That
is when I realized the amazing truth that there is 10,000 miles between a
person’s head and a person’s heart. In my mind, I can rationalize this, quote
Bible verses, pad it with religious platitudes and establish a “Christian
perspective” on the situation.
However,
in my heart, I am….. sad.
My
head repeatedly tells me that everything will work out fine. My heart doubts everything and (at this
point) is struggling to see the light.
I
believe this is healthy for me to BLOG this for 2 reasons:
#1. You need to know that I don’t live in a
perfect world without stress or fear.
Someone wrote, “success is on the same road as failure ~ just further
down the road”. So often when people ask
me for advice, I am simply “further down the road”. I have already, “been there ~ done that ~ and
got the tee shirt”.
#2. There are a number of real world applications
for this BLOG. Not the least of which is
the simple point that everything is in God’s hands. It is healthy for you to
know that I too struggle to “walk by faith”.
"Worry" and "Stress" is simply telling God HE can't handle it and needs your help.
Then Jesus said, “Come
to me,
all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you,
because I am humble and gentle at heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.” Matthew 11:28-29
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and
heart.
And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot
give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.” John 14:27